someone come and save my life.

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 12:20:45 GMT

had the JOKEST time last night. went to see the audition and you me at 6. i saw 12 ym@6 tshirts in the front section of the queue. thats like...one in every 7 people was wearing one. but yeah, met up with aleh and her friend and aleh bought malt loaf [whatever the fuck that is] and dropped LITERALLY a quarter of it on the floor. which caused much outrage.
then grace from school turned up and we just had SUCH a laugh. i feel bad cuz i never used to like her but that's my whole "hate everyone until they give reason to believe otherwise" thing. but we get on really well, and its nice. jay came with some of his friends and WOAH i forgot how undeniably attractive he was and that i might actually fancy the ACTUAL PANTS off him.
you me at 6 were lovely. me and grace had fangirl moments over josh, along with every other teenage girl [and probably boy] in the room. had lengthy discussions over what it is exactly that makes danny stevens so attractive [seriously, what is it ?], and the WRONGNESS of jamie and his 17 year old CHILD of a girlfriend [so so so wrong].

mocks are fun - i have no school today AND no school tomorrow AND i got the day off work tomorrow ! i hate my new boss though. and i'm having trouble deciding whether to quit or ask for like, 3 months off in the summer. haa.

which leads me to my next exciting point. JOSE VANDERS ON TOUR. 3 weeks all over the uk in a van with lots of sharpies and a melodica and some laptops and cameras and nice boys and free food and drink and entry to lots of nice places. the nice thing is, i think jose GENUINELY wants me to come. its going to be JOKEZ.

i'm actually having quite a good time right now. minus running into nick at enter shikari which shook me up a bit. but its not bothering me as much as i thought it would. which is nice. although it would also be nice to see him again.

hmm.

but yeah, i'm just having funnnn. got into ravensbourne, made a nice new friend called danny who recites the anchorman script with me, things are nice again with coops after he was all batty, i have a laugh at work, can't stop listening to brand new, made some new friends, going ON TOURRR ! how exciting.

xo

i hope you realised you threw away the best thing that ever happened to you.

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 22:52:39 GMT

i am, as my mum would say, "burning the candle at both ends"
i am exhausted. mentally and physically. school and work and everything is completely ripping it out of me. but i'm still finding time to have fun.
kids in glass houses was awesome. we were the village people - blates the best outfits. danced non stop, ached like hell the next day. worth every second though.
i'm going to throw myself headfirst into my photography. as far as i'm concerned its my priority now. i'm so not arsed about school to be honest, unless its art. so yeah. i'm going to send emails all the time, get in touch with whoever about whatever, i'm not going to be discouraged if i get refused passes, i mean its london.
mental notes: kerrang tour - jan, the audition [w/valencia] - march, ffaf/kigh - dec. bmth - dec.
shooting not advised in a few weeks [ask lights.action!], air traffic friday after next, lethal bizzle in december.
rawr.
i'm so fucking tired.

xo

stolen from aleh

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 19:49:35 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (i tried contacts once but it took my 20 minutes to get them in and out.)	✓ I love to play video games. (HAHAH YES.)	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (if sometimes means "all the time, even when its unnecessary and uncalled for")	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (HAHA luke does this. but he's a fucking phyco.)

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× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain. (i love it.)
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now. (i just spent it all on gig tickets.)
✓ I love sushi. (only the ones with just tuna in. nothing else.)	✓ I talk really, really fast. (especially after a gig.)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (wtf is caller id?)
× I like the way that I look.	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (probably =/)	✓ I am usually pessimistic. (but it depends on the situation)
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent.	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (LOL. not always. but enough to tick the box i think.)	✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (but not with everyone)	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (INIT.)	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (i do but i have no idea how i'm going to do it.)	× I want to have children in the future. (I HATE KIDS)
✓ I have changed a diaper before. (never again.)	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn. (SO many people have said that to me before)	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (only about certain things.)	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (i still go trick or treating every year!)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat. (eh?)	× Republican. (eh?)
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time. (HAH)	✓ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. (i thread them through the holes in the shoes in wicked cool ways.)	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can. (i HATE being barefoot. i wear socks all the time.)	✓ I have jumped off a bridge. (it was a very small one.)	✓ I love sea turtles. (OMG i used to be obsessed srsly.)
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
✓ I hate office jobs. (but the money i good.)	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people. (HAHA story of my life.)	✓ I adore bright colours.	✓ I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (are you kidding? tgifridays is the shizz.)	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (replace "work with" with "go to school with")	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. (or so i like to think.)	× I am ambidextrous. (no but i can write backwards as fast as i can forwards)
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth. (used to.)
✓ I hate my toes. (i think feet are jsut disgusting in general tbh.)	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (eh?)	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (hahah probably but i'm not sure.)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	✓ I am extremely flexible. (in what way? like i can touch my toes.)	✓ I love hugs more than kisses. (lol i wouldn't know though.)
✓ I want to own my own business.	× I smoke. (never)	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (no one's normal.)	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (i never cry at films. apart from castaway. COME ON IT WAS SAD WHEN WILSON FLOATED AWAY.)	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (i went clay pigeon shooting once?)
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (LMAO THAT'S HILARIOUS)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. (:])	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (he already did!! sobs* but i got his card details.)*	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian. (eh?)	✓ I can speak more than one language. (si senor.)	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (noo i'm a bare light sleeper. although i fell asleep at give it a name. but i was zonked.)
× I would rather read than watch TV. (i checked then unchecked this again cuz i thought of HOUSE.)	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles. (n64 all the way.)	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	✓ I have hit someone with a dead fish. (HAHA NO JOKE I ACTUALLY HAVE.)
× I am compulsively honest. (nooooooo.)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	✓ I dislike milk. (on its own, yes.)	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. (ill people?)
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (WTF.)	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (sometimes. people moan too much!!)	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	✓ I don't like to chew gum. (i used to chew gum all the time but i like mints more now.)
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. (i don't cuz then the world would be boring.)	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing. (yeah but i can't sing to save my life.)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. (that's kinda gross...)	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays. (i played santa claus in year 2. i was the lead role and all the parents loved me.)
× I enjoy burritos. (never had one)	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin! (ahh i used to wish i had a twin all the time but now i think it would just be irritating.)	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (i do the exact opposite most of the time)
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare. (i haven't played it in forever though)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (yoooou are not alooooone.)	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (like aleh's p33n.)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. (my lj friend IS my real life one :])	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

cutz

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 11:53:25 GMT

trying out lj cuts...

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 14:43:39 GMT

I FUCKING LOVE GET CAPE. WEAR CAPE. FLY.

SO EXCITED ABOUT SEEING HIM X A SQUILLION

that is all.

when i find out your favourite colour; your favourite flavour...

someone come and save my life.

i hope you realised you threw away the best thing that ever happened to you.

stolen from aleh

cutz